I wish taking a day off work helps.
But it always feel worse cos' the phone cant stop ringing and it's always thyself that can handle thy work best.
Sigh.

And I wake up feeling crap.
I tried reasoning/debating with myself but I felt robbed!
Honestly I wish all these aren't true.
And I wish that my gut feel aint that accurate afterall.

From the moment Jason told me that he is back to the other club,I dont feel good about it.
As much as I'm glad for him but there is this undeniable bad feel I had inside which I cant explain till now of cos.
I wont say I expect this.

I know afterall it's not that bad and if I am willing to let way,things will be good.
But I ask, on the expense of what?
Hasn't it always been between me and something else?Do I always have to give way to something else which he has no choice over?

Maybe it is my role to be more understanding. I can be. But I am NOT happy.
As a matter of fact, I feel so sad over it.

And I ask why can't I let things be and we will be both happier.

And I dont wanna think about it right now.
It is the bad feel of being deny something of and/or robbed of.

I already feel sick even when I took a day off work.
I dont want to cry and make it worse.